I don't know what to write or say about anything, except that I am so, so tired. As I write it is 1am Tuesday, and LOST is playing on the TiVo. It's not even the season finale, it's the episode from the 17th, and it has been at least that long since I have had time to watch anything. I imagine for a lot of people this isn't such a big deal, but I am a television junkie, it is my meditation, my relaxation, and my career, and I have seldom missed a day.
Last week at this time I was still at work, fifteen and a half hours in to a 23 hour work day. I don't think I can fully explain the stress and fatigue of wrapping up that show. I will say that I learned a lot, and that it will probably lead to much bigger things. I will also say that one of the things I learned is to never work under those circumstances again. Since Friday, when I received the call that it was over, I have continued to dream it every night. Mainly my dreams are too technical and specific to explain to the layperson in a brief little blog post, but it doesn't matter, the point of them was stress. Not only is my mind stressed, but my body, and as of today I started to shut down. I slept 10 hours last night, woke up, had breakfast, and napped for two more. Even now sleepy tears are gathering in my eyes, but I want to stay awake a little longer to prepare myself for a month on the night shift.
As for the bigger things opened up by my last job- there is a strong possibility that I'll be shifting to a new level in my career soon- something I've been doing on my last few shows and I didn't realize that it was actually a specialty for which I was being vastly underpaid. A great contact I've made on previous shows is going to teach me a few things I need to know, and with that I will easily double my salary-- to start. Considering that I just sold my house and am looking to buy in a much more expensive market, this is good. I'll start training this week, and I hope I'm good at it, because I already have two job offers.
I just have to remember that I can't expect to reach my goals on empty. This week has to involve more water, more exercise, better nutrition choices, and less caffeine. Hopefully my trip to Vegas this weekend will be the recharge I need.
